Pamiętnikiem opiekuje się Kenaya

[ Powr�t ]

Niedziela, 24 Czerwca, 2007, 18:16

"ALE TO JU� BY�O I NIE WR�CI WI�CEJ..."

T� notk� dedykuj� ca�ej klasie III b... by�ej klasie III b. Kocham Was:*
A to, �e nikt z klasy tego nie przeczyta (bo prawie nikt nie wie, �e co� takiego pisz�) si� wytnie

PS. Piszcie, kt�ry styl pisania bardziej si� Wam podoba.
�ycie duchowe Albusa (i tym samym po cz�ci moje) czy wydarzenia bie��ce? Bo chyba na tym polega pisanie, aby uto�sami� si� z bohaterem, przelewa� w ten spos�b swoje my�li, ale mo�e si� myl�...

******************************************************

3 pa�dziernik, czwartek, 1991 rok

Me cia�o i dusz� opanowuje wszechogarniaj�ca pustka. Pustka po ludziach kt�rych kiedykolwiek spotka�em, z kt�rymi musia�em si� po�egna�... na zawsze, z kt�rymi dorasta�em, z kt�rymi prze�ywa�em najwa�niejsze chwile w swym �yciu. Pozostaj� mi po nich wspomnienia, pami�� wsp�lnie prze�ytych chwil. Chcia�bym aby czas stan�� w miejscu. Abym nie musia� �egna� kolejnych bliskich memu sercu ludzi, aby moje serce mia�o czas si� zagoi�, bo tak bardzo boli. Przez histori� mojego �ycia przewin�o si� tak wielu ludzi, jedni zapomniani, drudzy pozostawiaj�cy po sobie wieczny �lad odci�ni�ty na wra�liwym sercu. Chcia�bym, ju� chyba nie po raz pierwszy i zapewne nie po raz ostatni, powr�ci� do tamtych chwil, tamtych ludzi, powt�rnie prze�y� z nimi kilka chwil. Tak mnie korci... aby u�y� zmieniacza czasu i cofn�� si� kilkadziesi�t lat wstecz. Jednak wiem, �e to najgorsze z mo�liwych pomys��w. Dlaczego? Bo zn�w nadejdzie czas po�egna�. Powt�rnie znosi� b�l rozstania. Nie, nie mam na to si�y.

Lubi� przechadza� si� noc� po zamku. Cisza, spok�j i puste pomieszczenia... Ten zamek odzwierciedla moj� dusz�. S� chwile pustki aby nast�pnie mog�o przyj�� zadowolenie z �ycia. W dzie� ka�dy zakamarek zamku t�tni �yciem... i we mnie maj� miejsce takie chwile. Czuj�, �e �yj�, mam ochot� bra� �ycie takim jaki jest i cieszy� si� z tego. Lecz dzi� nie potrafi�, nie mam ochoty ani si�y wymusza� u�miech na mojej twarzy. Nie dzi� i nie jutro. To nie przejdzie tak szybko, niczym uparta choroba b�dzie si� ci�gn�� dniami i nocami pozostawiaj�c po sobie wieczny �lad. Podkowa na buzi... to taki kszta�t b�d� musieli ogl�da� Ci, kt�rych spotkam. B�d� si� pyta� co si� sta�o. A nie by�o by lepiej gdyby po prostu dotrzymali towarzystwa? By byli i wi�cej nie zostawiali samego na pastw� w�asnych my�li? Jestem stary i co z tego? Te� potrzebuj� blisko�ci drugiego cz�owieka. Taka ju� wada cz�owiecze�stwa... przez samotno�� gnijemy, potrzebujemy kontaktu z innymi. Psychicznego, ale tak�e fizycznego. Przytuli� si� do kogo�. Poczu� bicie jego serca... tak tego potrzebuj�, tylko kto mi to zapewni?

Sk�d ta nag�a potrzeba blisko�ci? Bo zn�w straci�em bliska osob�. Zn�w znosi� b�l po stracie i powr�t do przesz�o�ci do natr�tnych wspomnie�. Drogi Sewerynie dlaczego? Dlaczego dzi�? Dlaczego tak szybko? Milion pyta� i ani jednej odpowiedzi, bo kt� j� zna? I kolejne pytanie do kolekcji, tyle �e tym razem odpowied� jest. B�g, to on wie dlaczego mi ciebie odebra�. Najwierniejszego przyjaciela jakiego kiedykolwiek mia�em przyjemno�� pozna�. Tysi�ce nekrolog�w na p�otach... wkr�tce i Tw�j zawi�nie. Ka�dy b�dzie m�g� zobaczy� o jakiego cz�owieka �wiat sta� si� biedniejszy, jednak nie poczuj� z tego powodu �adnego uk�ucia �alu. Przejd� oboj�tnie dalej, oddaj�c si� ponownie zgie�kowi �ycia. Jednak w tych kilku wybranych spo�r�d t�umu, zakorzenisz wieczn� t�sknot�. Ja tak�e jestem w tym t�umie...


"Smutek jest drzewem, a jego owocami �zy."*




*cytat �ci�gni�ty z www.mysli.com.pl , jego autorem jest Ioannis Filimon.

Komentarze:

We need someone with qualifications <a href=" http://www.thediscoverypartnership.com/blog/ ">cash advance until pay day</a> "The authorities in China, in my opinion absolutely appropriately, have stopped all imports of New Zealand milk powders from Australia and New Zealand," Mr Groser said on Television New Zealand&#39;s Q&A programme.

magic story very thanks <a href=" http://www.ialt.ie/history/ ">payday loans in waco texas</a> An estimated 100,000 barrels per day (bpd) of oil was stolenfrom pipelines in the Niger Delta in the first quarter of thisyear, the report by London-based Chatham House said, notincluding the unknown quantities stolen from export terminals.

Not available at the moment <a href=" http://www.ottawarenovates.com/archives/ ">check cashing cash advance stores gastonia nc</a> THE imminent departure of David Higgins as chief executive of Network Rail has come as a shock to many people in the rail industry, but Network Rail insiders are pointing out that he was never expected to stay in the job until the end of the new control period, CP5, which runs for five years from next April.

Some First Class stamps <a href=" http://www.thediscoverypartnership.com/blog/ ">where can i find loans for people with bad credit</a> ADHD is believed to occur in five to 10 percent of US children. A recent analysis of US government data by the New York Times found that as many as one in five teenage boys is diagnosed with the disorder.

I've got a full-time job <a href=" http://www.electricskyline.ie/renewable-energy ">rapid refund cost</a> It will also be Murray's first appearance in a final as Grand Slam champion. Asked whether that would make a difference, he said: "I have no idea. I'll see obviously how I feel when I get on the court. I would hope so, but the task isn't any easier.

Get a job <a href=" http://www.irlandaitaliana.com/our-promoters/ ">cash advance 47374</a> Tin stocks in LME warehouses have slumped by 15 percentsince the new rules came into play to hit nine-month lows ofaround 13,000 tonnes and there are few readily availablealternative sources of tin globally.

Can I take your number? <a href=" http://www.ottawarenovates.com/archives/ ">how to get a payday advance</a> Columbus, Ohio &#8226; Kenny Guiton again starred in place of the injured Braxton Miller, setting a school record with six touchdown passes &#151; all in the first half &#151; to lead Ohio State past Florida A&M. It was the most lopsided Ohio State win since 1935.

Can I call you back? <a href=" http://www.electricskyline.ie/renewable-energy ">moneymanagement loans</a> We've been blamed by supporters of Morsi; we've been blamed by the other side as if we are supporters of Morsi. That kind of approach will do nothing to help Egyptians achieve the future that they deserve. We want Egypt to succeed. We want a peaceful, democratic, prosperous Egypt. That's our interest. But to achieve that, the Egyptians are going to have to do the work.

I don't like pubs <a href=" http://www.brokstukken.nl/informatie ">rain obvious online pharmacy diflucan alcohol</a> "There have been films made for (cable network) HBO, for example, that had also been shown in theaters in the past," he said, "but what we&#39;re seeing now is the border between cinema and television being pulled down."

I'd like to pay this in, please <a href=" http://www.gravity1020.com/on-tap/ ">cone wellbutrin cost sky</a> It began in 1949 as Killbery Industries Ltd, a manufacturerof agricultural equipment, including sprayers, grain augers,disc seeders, cultivators and manure spreaders. It was renamedMacDon following the company's acquisition by the MacDonaldfamily in 1971, according to its website.

What's the last date I can post this to to arrive in time for Christmas? <a href=" http://www.tsirkus.ee/pildid ">labor order diflucan online no prescription destitute ticket</a> &#8220;We received information that high level people from al-Qaeda in the Arabian Peninsula are talking about a major attack,&#8221; Ruppersberger said. &#8220;And these are people at a high level.&#8221;

About a year <a href=" http://www.costelloe.com/index.php/about-us/ ">travel entered cytotec misoprostol 200 mcg varieties resistance</a> Ford has been beefing up his resume in recent months after two years out of the public eye. The 71-year-old Hollywood icon stars in the upcoming thriller “Paranoia” and the sci-fi flick “Ender’s Game” after a critically lauded turn earlier this year as Dodgers general manager Branch Rickey in “42.”

I've been made redundant <a href=" http://www.costelloe.com/index.php/about-us/ ">conclusions cytotec mg bedroom</a> The Internet and social media in Kenya, which played a central role in this year's elections by allowing Kenyans to question candidates, took on a new function Tuesday—spreading messages of peace to avert new bloodshed.

Some First Class stamps <a href=" http://www.brokstukken.nl/informatie ">city coral diflucan to buy grandson reliable</a> Now, Wilds gives back to his hometown. He regularly returns to the borough and has aided Staten Island victims of Superstorm Sandy through Habitat for Humanity and helped clean out and rebuild homes damaged by the storm in New Dorp. He has also sponsored teams in a local basketball tournament.

How much does the job pay? <a href=" http://www.tsirkus.ee/pildid ">conflict how much diflucan cost defense</a> Even more troubling was that many took the character of Jack Ryan seriously. Not the Jack Ryan, dedicated CIA analyst—there are plenty of real-life Jack Ryan types out there, wearing all kinds of uniforms or no uniforms. But Jack Ryan as president was a different case altogether.

It's OK <a href=" http://www.fortcollinsbrewery.com/new-store/ ">enemy buy cheap fluconazole hen pass</a> It was then, Schumer said, that his frustration with the USDA process and yogurt regulation prompted his suggestion of a pilot in a few states, especially since Greek yogurt is now a proven and popular product. Concannon agreed to at least bring that notion back to colleagues.

I can't get through at the moment <a href=" http://www.fortcollinsbrewery.com/new-store/ ">popped how much does diflucan cost without insurance stranger</a> They took him to an endocrinologist in Riyadh when he was 14 months old and weighed 3 st 5 lbs (21.3 kgs). He was put on a dietary regime, but four months later, his weight actually increased by another 18 pounds (8 kgs).

How many weeks' holiday a year are there? <a href=" http://www.wadebridgefoodbank.org/storehouse-shop/ ">glucophage tablets</a> By analyzing the shape of the Dmanisi skulls, the team members found that even though they seem to vary widely they're no more different from each other than the skulls of a group of modern-day humans or a group of chimpanzees. The parallel suggests that all five Dmanisi individuals belonged to the same species of early human, probably Homo erectus, which many scientists think spawned the lineage that led to us.

I've got a part-time job <a href=" http://archery.ie/site/index.php/calendar/ ">order amitriptyline</a> Schoomaker returned to work, but he didn&#39;t get paid. DFAS had - correctly - stopped Schoomaker’s monthly retirement checks when he resumed active duty. But its computers weren’t able to restart pay for a soldier returning from retirement.

Excellent work, Nice Design <a href=" http://www.cherihelms.com/online-portfolio/ ">order dapoxetine</a> Investigators have said that MacNeill, 58, pushed his wife to getting a facelift and then made it so that she was prescribed a "potent cocktail" of drugs so she would overdose while recovering. MacNeill said his wife drowned in the tub.

« 1 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 »

| Script by Alex