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Sz�am ciemnym korytarzem… Moje serce by�o przepe�nione niezwyk�ym uczuciem… Bardzo czego� pragn�am… Cho� sama nie wiedzia�am czego. Sz�am jednak pewnie, wci�� przed siebie… Na ko�cu korytarza, kt�rym pod��a�am ukaza� si� du�y balkon sk�pany w srebrzystym �wietle ksi�yca. By�a pe�nia… Poczu�am wielk� ochot� aby z niego skoczy� i da� si� ponie�� lekkiemu wiaterkowi… Mocniejszy powiew smagn�� mnie po twarzy, jakby zach�caj�c do skoku… Zapach moich w�os�w poni�s� si� na wietrze. Podesz�am do balustrady…

- A�a!!- sykn�am z b�lu, kt�ry nagle odczu�am w okolicy swoich �opatek. By� tak mocny, i� musia�am si� wgry�� w poduszk� aby zag�uszy� kolejny okrzyk.
Jednak b�l min�� tak samo szybko jak si� pojawi�. Le�a�am w ciszy nas�uchuj�c czy nie obudzi�am �adnej z kole�anek. Dormitorium zape�nione by�o jedynie miarowymi oddechami dziewczyn. Odkry�am si�… By�o mi bardzo gor�co…
Obr�ci�am si� na bok ton�c w my�lach. Nigdy nic podobnego mi si� nie przydarzy�o. Ten b�l by� tak niezwykle realny…
�adnym sposobem nie mog�am sobie poradzi� z bezsenno�ci�, kt�ra dopad�a mnie po przebudzeniu. Usiad�am na ��ku, odchyli�am kotary i okaza�o si�, �e ju� �wita… Spojrza�am na zegarek. By�o kilka minut przed sz�st�.
Prawie do ko�ca rozbudzona skierowa�am swoje kroki ku Pokojowi Wsp�lnemu.

- Tato, ale ja si� o ni� martwi�… - us�ysza�am g�os Dereka i stan�am wryta jak s�up soli.
- Synu, czy to na pewno nasze rodowe wzory? – odpowiedzia� mu niski, m�ski g�os.
- Tak. Maj� nawet ten sam kolor. – j�kn�� Derek.
- Malinowe? Na pewno s� m a l i n o w e?? – zapyta� zawzi�cie m�czyzna.
Wyjrza�am zza rogu korytarzyka i dostrzeg�am Dereka kl�cz�cego na dywanie przed kominkiem. Kiwn�� g�ow� w potakuj�cym ge�cie.
- A wi�c proszek Fiuu. – pomy�la�am.
- Derek… Ona na zawsze b�dzie po��czona w pewien spos�b z nasz� rodzin�.
- To mi akurat nie przeszkadza, Tato. – powiedzia� ch�opak z rado�ci� w g�osie…
- Co� was ��czy? – zapyta� zaciekawiony ojciec Dereka.
- To znaczy… No… Tak jakby…
- Synu, uczu� nie trzeba si� wstydzi�. Wr�cz nie wolno!… Widz�, �e jeste� do niej bardzo przywi�zany. No i pewnie ci si� podoba…
Nie mia�am ju� odwagi wyjrze� zza winkla, ale cichy �miech ojca ch�opaka utwierdzi� mnie w przekonaniu, �e Derek kiwn�� g�ow�.
- Tato… Czy ona… Zawsze?
- Tak… Ka�dej pe�ni stanie si� p�…

-Padma, ty nie �pisz??? – krzykn�a u�miechni�ta od ucha do ucha Angela (kole�anka z roku) zbiegaj�c po schodach .
Wyskoczy�am w powietrze jak poparzona i g�o�nio wci�gn�am powietrze.
Us�ysza�am ciche pykni�cie i po chwili odpowiedzia�am dziewczynie:
- Ale mnie przestraszy�a�, wariatko! Po prostu jestem g�odna i mia�am wpa�� do kuchni po co� s�odkiego…
- S�odycze z samego rana? – zapyta�a z ironi� w g�osie.
- Mam ch��. Ale skoro ty nie chcesz… - I odwr�ci�am si� wiedz�c co zaraz nast�pi…
- Oszala�a�? Id� z tob�! - krzykn�a.
Mia�y�my ju� wkroczy� do Pokoju Wsp�lnego, gdy nagle przed naszymi oczami mign�� zarys Dereka. W pe�nym p�dzie wyskoczy� na korytarz i tyle go widzia�y�my... Wcale mnie to nie pocieszy�o . Wiedzia�am, �e zapewne domy�li� si�, �e go pods�ucha�am, ale tak czy siak b�dzie mi musia� wyja�ni� co si� dzieje… Wi�cej si� nie wykr�ci bajeczkami o zdech�ym psie .
- Co z nim? – zapyta�a szczerze zdziwiona Angela.
- Nie mam poj�cia – sk�ama�am. – To idziemy po s�odycze?
- Oczywi�cie. – odpar�a z u�miechem i ca�kowicie zapomnia�a o dziwnym zachowaniu Dereka.
Gdy sz�y�my do kuchni nie mog�am przesta� my�le� o tym co us�ysza�am… Spojrza�am na moje paznokcie. Nadal mia�y te wzorki. Bez w�tpienia by�y w�a�nie malinowe… I co pe�ni� b�d� si� stawa�a p�… Czym? To mnie niepokoi�o najbardziej…
Jednak u�miech na mej twarzy wywo�a�o wspomnienie kilku s��w ojca Dereka: „Widz�, �e jeste� do niej bardzo przywi�zany. No i pewnie ci si� podoba…” .

-Padma… Chyba mia�y�my i�� do kuchni? – zapyta�a Angela.
-Nooo… - odpar�am nieprzytomnie i stan�am w miejscu. By�am kilka metr�w za obrazem z mis� owoc�w. – Troch� si� zamy�li�am…
- Dereku�, co ? – zapyta�a z szelmowskim u�miechem.
- Odwal si�! – szturchn�am j�, po czym po�askota�am gruszk�, poci�gn�am za zielon� klamk� i wkroczy�am do pachn�cej i zag�szczonej skrzatami kuchni. – Zajmijmy si� s�odyczami – rzuci�am do Angeli przez rami�.

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